life is beautiful

blogy dear..
can’t help myself that i had other so many things in mind..
office works, my leave, and the proposal..
office works are like rain in december..it keeps coming and cause jammed everywhere..
the more i do things the more to come..
life is a busy train..
about my leave, the email from mr jumbeli hasn’t arrived yet, so still not sure bout the d-day..
the preparation is much more halted due to my assignment in karawang..
the world is not enough by now..

blogy..
the proposal has been talked about between me and her..we’ve got some agreements..
the implementation is just waiting for the right moment..
i’m happy as well as scary..first in life..another new experience..should be good..
i wish to have for pak ony to come..dunno whether it’s possible..will see..

blogy..
i’ve told fia about her just now..
in the sms, fia is happy for me..
i do need her support..

morning blogy..
i just got home from siska’s birthday party..
she looked happy in her 30th birthday..with full hope i guess..

it’s been a couple days since the last time i wrote to you..
today, i involved in pak ony’s son wedding ceremony..
it was successfull..
i took some pictures..and met many old faces..good pals are treasure..

well, the highlight of the day actually was that she came to the party and i’ve got to her again..miss you so much dear..
i introduced her to almost all of my colleagues..and the crowd liked her..
she smiled most of the time..so sweet..
and..
i had many chances actually to be with her..dump me..
little embarassingly, i finally got the ring to her..amazingly it fit her!..
she called on the way, and the words are expressed..will you bla bla me?..
“i do” is the answer..wow..talking about lucking out!..
i was so happy..so so happy..
the only sad thing is that it wasnt a romantic way..dump me..
i said i wanna do it again..next time should natural and memorable way..

blogy..
pray for me to be strong and firm..
i feel in my heart that she’s the one for me..no doubt..
but i’m just afraid that i’m not good enough for her..
this fear has haunted me down for almost every serious relationship i had..i keep losing people for this fear..
i know i should fight..fight for her..
ya Allah, please show me the way..the best for me..

life somehow is beautiful..
i’ll be strong..
i’ll be fine..
i’ll be successfull..
i wont give up..
i won’t be tired..
i can do it!..

hi blogy..
sad moment and happy moment sometimes are just a matter of chances..
happy when we’re given chance to smile, laugh, love, cherish, care and share..life is so much beautiful then..
sad when we’re given chance to shed tears, dissapoint, regret, separate, say good bye, let go..time is so short for everything..life looks unfair..

blogy..
i love mom and idol..love them so much..now they know i’m leaving..they’re strong..please take care of them dear God..
i love fia..she’ my guardian angel..always be there for me..love her wholeheartedly..
i love her..the chemistry shivers me around..she gives warm to my heart..somehow i keep missing her..impulsive type..
i love you blogy..don’t worry about that..you’re my loyal listener now..hehe..thanks yah..

good nite..

disconnected blogy..

i’ve written long and gone..
no rewriting please..
just two lessons to remember:..
lesson of the day: clumsiness and ignorance create potential loss..
lesson in life: no guts no reality..

bubye blogy..

bob’s coming..blogy..
that’s the highlight of the day..
he symbolizes an optimism to us..new good hope and wishes..
and the impact as always i’ll be very busy, preparing his requests..
the problem now is that i keep thinking bout all the preparation for my leave..
there are many things to do in a short period of time..
i might get sick because of that..

i dont know blogy..
you live your life and you live people life as well..
i know it’s the issue of managing things and time and off course mind..
i come to realize that i’m not a good manager yet..
actually complaining is useless nevertheless it’s very humane..
i’m tired but the sleeping time is short..

blogy, when can i enjoy my life?..

blogy dear..
it’s almost midnite..
why you haven’t slept?..hehe..loyal huh..?
thank you blogy dear..
today my activities from managing the test, writing report, meeting with boss and meeting my friend dear..
fia keeps asking about angel..
i can’t tell her yet like i usually do..
actually she knows her, just isn’t the right time..
i have to make sure first..

well blogy..i have problem today..
i called her telling about my new assignment..but..
the response is not as convincing as i expected..
or merely because i have leveled up my expectation towards her..
i felt down a bit inside..would i get the repeated reply?..
bad..real bad..for heaven sake..not for the second time..
i’m stronger though..extra eggs probably the answer..
nay..she’s i ever want..no extra cheese nor stuffed crush..
i’ll play the last card and make the final cut..
now or never..sim salabim..abrakadabra..

ps. i heard kenny’s voice on the phone message..
she sounds happy..good for her..
happy birthday ken..good luck..

hi blogy..
how’re you doin?..
feel like it’s been a long time not seeing you..
kinda miss you..big time..
you know what blogy..
today, almost got out from the office, suddenly met with pak ses..
he told me that the boss ask for me to be stationed in manila..wow..
we both then went to the boss and he looked quite excited himself, smiling, turning high music..unique old man..
in his room, he talked alot about how he appreciated every opportunity coming to his way..he even still wants to work in new york now if possible..hehe, quite encouraging..
he’s sort of motivating me that working in manila can give so much advantage..like meeting vvip, networking, endeavor, girls, edge..everything that can give competitive advantages unexpectedly..wow..
i just smiled and replied shortly..
he actually almost signed the letter of assignment..
i said yes with no hesitation..
and he began to say there’s no turning back..!..wow..wow..
i’ll sent right away..wow again..
well..my heart’s excited, my mind’s tinkering, my body shivers and my soul worries..all mixed up..

blogy..blogy..
my heart is excited feeling that this is the chance..i’m taking her with me..once and for all..no doubt..
my mind is tinkering thinking that can i make it?..can i reach the expectation?..can it solve problems?..can it bring a new hope and new beginning?..
my body shivers absorbing the idea of new places, strange environment, unknown facility, unpredictable health problems, stamina, unrevealed inherent condition..how’re those for survival?..
my soul worries especially about my family to be left, mom and idol..
God..that the hardest part..

blogy..
i told fia and she just knew it..i surely miss her alot..
and another person that i wanna tell tonite is my dear angel..
she’s still out of town at the moment..
this might be the chance..

blogy..wish me luck ya..
we’ll still meet though i’m in a different location..
i’ll report to you later blogy..
bubye now..